Tuesday, April 20, 2010

April 19th Fifteen Years After

Sadness and slow tears.
Catharsis or just a cafard?
Inarticulate this time.
Watched a special about Tim McVeigh's audio tapes a writer made of him.

McVeigh talked and talked,
but I never heard him say...why...I want to know what seed planted by whom grew that demonic cyst that replaced his heart.
I heard him claim to be a proud solider....in who's army..of what cause?

He never gives us an answer, just quotes for his personal place in history that are meaningless.

Somehow the word sociopath just doesn't cover it.

7 comments:

pecheur said...

What would make someone become so confused as to do such dastardly deeds?

Maybe it was beyond the mental and into the dark spiritual that prompted such, as you suggested.

drlobojo said...

As I said, I want to understand it as well. If we could only extract such knowledge from someone like him without the ego's filters.

Feodor said...

A cyst of evil. Exactly. A horror of emptiness that cannot be understood or known because it is the absence of a self, a being... an almost total absence of the good that is being.

Joan said...

Fifteen years later I still cannot wrap my brain around any reasoning, at all, for the OKC bombing.

TStockmann said...

I respectfully dissent without having seen the interview. The central point he made all along is that there is nothing we can do collectively in a state, even making the utterly indefensible leap that somehow the state really operates as a collective, informed, consenting we, that we cannot do as individuals. I'm not even sure on a practical basis whether the acts of individual terrorists or groups like Al Qaeda are, on average, any more insane than the ones we cheerfully accept under the banner of not demonizing the military again.
The decision to bomb the Federal building in OKC and accept the consequences surely does not rank lower in the moral universe than ordering the war against Iraq and then retiring to largely unearned wealth.

TStockmann said...

And, yes, I am acquainted with The Leviathan.

drlobojo said...

TS: "The decision to bomb the Federal building in OKC and accept the consequences surely does not rank lower in the moral universe than ordering the war against Iraq and then retiring to largely unearned wealth."

True.
The point may be that we have a far greater understanding of the real sources and motivations for the sin of the Iraq War, than we do as to why McVeigh did what he did.